I must not live with futility

My Prayer

At the beginning of each day, I lay still in my bed, motionless and consumed by ‘thinking’. I scan the boundless skies of my mind searching for something to give reason to pursuit my life, or at least an excuse not to stay in bed.

I have been doing this for while now, ever since I realised that living needs purpose, to simply exist would be a waste of resources. To see the light of our ever giving sun over and over again at the beginning of each day only to achieve nothing at the end would be unfortunate. When the sun return to the distant plains beyond the horizon and when I examine my hands and ask, “What have I created today?”, I would have an answer. Thus, at the beginning of my day, in an effort to fend off futility, I ask my self, “What will I create today?”

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My Sermon

We as creatures of ‘will’ have a responsibility to expend our existence with purpose, we are not bound by the chains of determinism. We are free to be as we want to and act as we wish. But so too can we relinquish this freedom and succumb to the ‘curse’ of monotony, an unthinking state of existence where our lives are wasted by forces not of our own. To ask for rights is a matter of society, but we as individual can never loose this freedom, we merely forget it. It is easy to live without choosing and without thinking, to assimilate into a foreign consciousness and abide by its will but no price is too large to pay for the privilege of owning ones’ self.

Al-nietzsche